cleint friends

seared ahi

the sounds of morning coffee brewing

target (er, le target)

morning birds chirping

wedNesDaY, right?

dinner with long time no see friend

being called a 40yearold hottie, by a 25 y/o hottie

friends from out of town passing through

advil

no job to go to hung over
(i knew there was a positive side!)

Slow Down your moving too fast...

quiet ponds; calm dispositions; acceptance; futures & hope; reliable mates

hump day

Today I am grateful for feeling calm and centered.

I'm grateful that my house is almost clean and finally getting more organized after my trip.

I'm grateful for flickr and that people sometimes find my photos and ask if they can use them in tourist guides! No money involved, and they never choose what I would choose, but it's still kind of exciting.

I don't know what I would do without the internet. Seriously, how can anyone deny it is the best invention ever? I can sit in the comfort of my living room, follow my thoughts, type them in and voila! - I am smarter than I was before, except for when I'm trolling porn sites of course...that is a joke. I love the internet.

I am grateful for everything! I must be having one of those ecstatic mornings - so much better than yesterday morning.

I am grateful for change: changing moods, changing seasons, changing situations, changing whatever. Thank God everything changes. I like it when things change for the better but I guess it's all a matter of perspective.

I've really got to start writing on my other web site again and stop co-mingling my musings with my gratitudinals...

reluctant & remiss

today i'm grateful for a job interview...i could really use some work and income!
i'm grateful for coffee dates with a new friend where i can just be me, even if i'm moody
i'm grateful for getting back on track with my diet, even if i still want ice cream and pizza
i'm happy to have slept in
i'm grateful to have finally posted my trip photos

Tittilating Tuesday

So what if I don't wake up in good mood - nearly ever; I am still grateful that I am not a cheerleader that pleasantly accepts any BS...my wide angle lens is often painful but nonetheless clear.

I am glad that I have work and interests which assist me in striving to improve the world, and humanity (or lack thereof) instead of just cruising along as an american consumer - as if my actions do not contribute to the big issues of the day.

I love fireworks! ...but not at 3 am; unless I am the inconsiderate a-hole.

starting the day with a five mile walk on the beach with Blu and a friend...sure makes walking through the door to work a progression of my day instead of the personal hurdle

The health and wellbeing of friends and family both new and old.

mood swings

It is always interesting to me when I become aware of how we interpret things through our own unique filters and how our filters are more about what is happening for us than about anything to do with the other person. It is really amazing to me when I see this in myself and others.

I am currently experiencing heavy duty mood swings - that is my current filter. Stupid things have taken on more meaning than normal because I feel like I am fighting to hold onto myself in the midst of heavy change. That sounds dramatic but that is how it feels right now. And I know that this is happening in part because my body is going through lots of huge changes and it will all pass.

I don't feel like being politically correct today. Today I feel like I am going to step on people's feelings no matter what I do - so it's probably best to stay inside and not subject others to my "moods". But, then there is the internet so I don't even have to leave my apartment to wreak havoc.

I woke up feeling great and then a few things happened that made me feel pressured and now I am not feeling great - because I'm having a mood swing and that's the way things are going to be for the next couple of weeks - just want to keep everyone apprised of my situation...right now I'm annoyed and this will most likely change in a few minutes after I eat some pineapple.

So, at the risk of having revealed too much already...

• Today I am grateful for walks and talks in Golden Gate Park with a friend I haven't seen in a long time.
• I am grateful to have time to myself to adjust to everything that is happening to me.
• I am grateful that I do not have a family that pressures me in any way and even when my parents were alive, they didn't pressure me to do things (except going to college - which turned out to be the best decision ever) because they knew better. I miss my parents so much and I wish I could talk to my dad more than anything. I'm grateful I had them when I did.
• I am grateful I found a man who loves me when I am having mood swings and am an uber-bitch (which by the way has not happened yet...I'm still working my way up to uber-bitchdom, but I'm sure I will get there soon.)
• I am grateful for growth and new challenges.
• I am grateful for Goddess salad dressing and blueberries.

I hope I don't do any irreparable damage to anyone during this process. I feel fucking crazy but the good news is I'm totally normal! Whoopee!

Oh yes, another Monday

I am grateful that my porch is finally fully painted

That the beach is a stroll away

That when I am hungover or tired or whatever, that I don't have to worry about taking care of others

that we have that wonderful fire pit in the back yard; it makes for some rollicking good times

catching up with old friends

almost Monday and I am grateful for:

• my life the way it is now
• the way my life is evolving and changing in ways I never really considered
• honest conversations, even when the topics scare me
• having breaks from serious stuff
• very loud music while driving over the Bay Bridge

Tonight I am grateful I discovered that one of my best friends is going through the same thing I am at almost exactly the same pace! I am so excited!

I'm grateful for big burps.

I'm grateful for yummy Indian eggplant.

I'm grateful for not having to worry about "other women".

I'm grateful to have a little guardian sitting next to me while I write - and that he hasn't biten me since I returned from Peru - yet.

clean

i'm grateful that my five huge loads of laundry are done - i could use someone to help me schlep it upstairs though!

grateful for diane hosting the hsmf planning party

grateful for clarity, when it comes to me

grateful for being able to communicate stuff that is challenging articulately

grateful for food that is "bad" for me, like burgers and french fries and pizza....yum! next week, i clean out my system again and go back to the gym

Summer solstice

I spent summer solstice first in a vernal pool - catching frogs and falling in muck; trying to get it certified before the developers ruin yet another area of town

Lunch on the porch followed by some hours at the computer at work. Another night meeting on my favorite day of the year yielded some good work but also some difficulty with a trusted colleague. Today we jumped right in and dealt with it. I pray the trust between the two of us has not been compromised because of Machiavellian politics.

I closed the evening with a walk with Blu and catching up with Pat on the porch while the first summer's thunder and lightening storm cooled the temperatures. It was a pretty good day.

Happy Summer Everybody!

Oh, that is a eastern Leopard Frog. They're Huge.

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so - thankful for being a girl, with education, a job, no predetermined plan or spouse, my own being without a penis!

phone calls and emails

today i'm grateful for:

phone calls that clear the air

phone calls that deliver EXCITING news

emails from long lost friends

emails from new gal pals

making plans to see people and hang out

landing a job interview

getting off of jury duty

Today I am grateful for my awesome therapist. I think it's true when they say therapists take on the role of parents sometimes. A dreaded visit turned out to be so much better than I expected.

I'm thankful that my expectations are turning out to be more about my own fears than other people's perceptions.

I'm grateful that my hunny loves me even when I'm "moody" :-) whatever THAT means...

I am grateful to have friends that I love.

I am grateful that I am able to hear feedback about myself without getting offended.

forced

i'm not feelin' it...but i know i have a lot to be grateful for, so here goes:

grateful for saying what's on my mind, even if i am confronted with misplaced anger
grateful for listening to my needs and doing my best to make sure these needs are met
grateful for garbage chutes
grateful for things to keep me busy
grateful for a less dodgy stomach

All I need is within reach

This is a frosted elfin on what looks to me as Highbush Blueberry.

I am grateful for bugs. Most people do not like them but they all have a specialty and purpose which would be greatly missed up the food chain without each and every one of them. Plus they really are cool.

I am happy it is raining and my garden is happier

I am always pleasantly surprised when I am able to properly connect a new piece of technology and use it

I am grateful for the networks of people I know although it often kills me to be social and pleasant to people I don't know. I know this seems untrue for people who know me but I just don't care to meet so many acquaintances anymore so when I am able - it is a good thing.

I am especially appreciative of the sense of balance and peace I feel at this time of year

OH, and I'm glad my mother won't be coming to stay with me until the end of summer. Hopefully that is not as awful as it sounds but it is nonetheless true.

I am grateful that I devoted the last 18 months of my life to getting healthy and strong. Funny how the goal of getting into a bikini is serving me in different ways - even if I never make it to the bikini, it was worth striving for.

I have ever-lasting gratitude for my bed - especially when it has clean sheets.

I'm grateful for chocolate covered peanut-butter cookies that seem to materialize exactly when I need them! I just can't seem to stop eating sugar right now, after all that disgusting food in Peru. It's a rationalization, I know. I don't care right now.

I am also grateful that it's peach and cherry season! And that it's almost blueberry season!

I'm grateful to Michael Moore for making a movie about our fucked up healthcare system. I hope it does something positive. I hope it comes out on Friday so I can see it soon!

patience

i hear it's a virtue...
sometimes i have it, and sometimes i don't
okay, not very profound, but true!

soy hoy agradecido para:

penis sculptures in seemingly unlikely places ;)

having patience and perserverence with my ipod that read: no files on ipod (with an image). ut oh!
here i was at a client's house, now with no music...mercury in retrograde, and an old ipod - feeling as though i don't have the funds to replace it. que lastima! so i came home, read the apple site on troubleshooting and tried everything. nothing! i gave up for a while, and when i tried again, voila, everything seems cool. success! and, it gave me something focused to do for a while ;)

clients calling for massages - even if they are not all booking due to scheduling, it's nice to know i'm saught after and that work is coming. energetically, it's important right now

EDD checks, despite their miniscule nature

burrito dinnner plans, depsite my still somewhat dodgy stomach

so far not having to actually go in for jury duty...may it last through the week and get me off the hook till my next summons!

Its a wild ride

Clean Water

Birds outside my window

Fiction before bed

equilibrium

and the most important, those crazy twists and turns in life that you would never envision for yourself becoming the very things which bring you peace and joy...here's to not knowing!

whoa - today I am grateful for:

• my friends who are so far away - I wish I could see them all the time and not just a couple times a year, or less now that I don't go back East anymore...
• cookies
• abc.com - the season finale of Lost was so freakin' good!
• the nice lady who finally gave me a doctor's appointment after getting the run around all morning
• all of the people who are kind to me on a regular basis - and all of the people who are nice to me even though I'm a stranger

monday at home

i'm grateful for my comfortable bathroom, where nobody can hear my goings on, where i've been spending a lot of time since i returned from my trip

i'm grateful for the weight i've lost and that people have noticed upon seeing me

i'm grateful for clients that appear out of nowhere with deep pockets

i'm grateful for movies that are cute and entertaining - and just what i expected pretty much (waitress)

i'm grateful for my kitchen where i can make my infamous veggie stir fry with fresh veggies and brown rice

and i'm grateful for knowing the face of who i'm "up against" even if it's not really a "battle"...

for beautiful Spring weather just turning to Summer - right on time.

for a quiet office in the woods

For girlfriends

for the comfort life is providing right now

for my pooch introducing me to new neighbors I might actually like

Today I am grateful for:

• consistency
• clean water to drink
• re-connecting with friends after a long time away
• the unexpected curves that life throws me
• out of the box thinking

Today I am grateful:

• that my palmistry class is over! the drama is over! Yeah!
• for beginnings
• for friends with open minds
• for a fruitful journey and being home
• time to veg in front of the tv while eating hotdogs with cheese and ketchup

Growing Up

Learning ...and getting to a place where I can hold my own among those actually trained for this fieldwork

Humor and silliness

Future plans providing me with things in which to look forward

My Father in Law

The lessons and love of my Father

sunny and warm

feeling grateful for:

the fan that keeps my steamy apartment cooler

drinks with a friend on her birthday, and especially grateful for the friend ;)

warm weather warranting open toed shoes

a new headlamp which also led to a new sports bra - sometimes i just love sports basement

massages

loving life

I am grateful for Melly who convinced me it would be a good thing to see the Police again after 24 years - so much fun, even in the nosebleeds. Sting is an inspiration - all of them are. How could I forget how much I loved them when I was able to sing every word of every song? Perfecto.

I am grateful for a return to a warm blanket of love and the promise of a brilliant future.

Grateful I haven't been biten by Woody - yet.

Grateful for meeting new friends and spending hot afternoons on the porch with a cold drink.

And grateful that I am comfortable being myself.

hola kuliakas

home and grateful for:

mike stanton - even if/when the situation requires patience

food that i like, accessible, whenever.

toilet paper IN THE toilet

the care taken with my apartment and kitties

friends and family who missed me

máte de coca té

slow down baby.

quiet

trees

contemplation

being taught how to think

the safe return of my best friend

I'm back!

Today I am grateful to be home, after 24 hours of traveling!

I'm grateful for burritos and pizza and that there is no sign of dehydrated potatoes or guinea pig anywhere near me.

I'm grateful to see my hunny!

I'm grateful for all of the experiences I had in Bolivia and Peru - most especially the short time I spent with these Peruvian children who just wanted me to take their pictures so they could see them afterwards - they were the cutest.

I'm grateful to have running water and good plumbing and that my apartment is still here and for my bed.

weeding a vertical hill

oooh, a little pampering!...haircuts but especially the fingers running through my head & hair

finally, getting GO on that big project for which I have been procrastinating

sushi

dirt under my nails

starting a new week off with a site visit and canoe ride; I get paid for this!

Fridays in June

Fridays that culminate in projects that frustrated all week coming together

Old friends and the possibility of reconnecting

Exciting new endeavors and partnerships

not fighting with family members

look forward to field trip on Monday and getting away from this computer

Machu Pichu

Hola amigas!

Today I am grateful:

• that I am strong enough to climb Machu Pichu! Okay - not the real Machu Pichu, but what they consider the little mountain, the one you see in all the pictures - and that I didn´t fall coming down because it was some scary shit let me tell you...
• for misty mornings
• that I am finally feeling better in my stomach - it sucks to be sick in a foreign country
• for meeting creative, spiritual people in foreign places - it is so cool here! I can´t wait to tell you about everything!
• that I found an internet cafe and had time to post something
• for lots of other stuff that is too much to say in the time I have right now

Until next time - I miss you! Muchos besos de Peru!

Today I Am Grateful For:

quiet dinners with mom and dad

time to organize and de-clutter so i can see my kitchen table top again

free music in the park and a sweet friend who encourages me to go by myself

funny movies that crack me up - going to a movie, finding out it's sold out, then still getting a ticket and getting a great seat. sometimes it pays to do things alone.

free time to day dream

half way

Very grateful for good doctors & nurses

Old friends

a glint of gold around my neck

sleep

all the wonderful variety of food in our lives