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the best thiing for me about the year turning is the possibilities the new year holds. when we can all dream about how to create the life we really want, making space for new things and letting go of the old things that no longer serve us.

I am grateful for:

the possibilies of change
knowing that it is possible to re-lose the weight (a tried and true new years sentiment!)
honoring what works
continuing to let go of what does not work
knowing that i have enough and that i AM enough

again - happy new year to you all.
be safe.
be grateful.
be love.

expansion

i'm grateful for:

extended friend families
figuring it out
remaining calm
not buying into the hype
sales sales everywhere

feliz año nuevo

i heart john doe

i'm grateful that i went to slims to see john doe and X play last night
i'm grateful that i was standing on his side and got to watch him rock out (i heart john doe!!)
i'm grateful that i am not a sloppy drunk
i'm grateful for enjoying myself in a sea of aging punk rockers - quite amusing
i'm grateful for standing my ground and honoring my feelings

clearer...

i'm seeing things more clearly now. remembering to check in with how things FEEL as opposed only to what is said...

so today, i'm grateful for:

face time with amy - thanks for a fun time ;)
going to see "X" tonight
today is friday, which means i can sleep in tomorrow! hip hip hooray!
netflix netflix netflix _ my new best friend!
coconut hair shine...i'd be the eternal witchy woman without it
possibilities for the new year...a girl can (and sometimes will) dream!

i give thanks today for:

the beautiful winter sunrise
the birds chirping
being able to pay my bills
a casual/jeans work environment
change (i'm counting on it!)
a short work week
my friends (who feel especially important these days)
letting go (even when it's not complete)
this practice - which keeps me grateful...mostly ;)

post holiday blues

I am grateful for my daddy's egg nog recipe...as are others!

I'm grateful I have a job to go back to even if I did not want to

I'm grateful for the lovely gifts that people spent time to purchase and give to me/us

I'm grateful for a doctors appointment, finally.

I'm grateful for lessons taught to me by my parents...no, they couldn't get them all but at least when I eat people don't hear me two rooms away....gross...so maybe I'll work on being less judgemental in the next year.

everything changes

i'm a really in process of focusing on the good things, and letting go of things that no longer serve me. it sounds so easy. it's a process and there's lots of change to deal with through it all...

so today i'm grateful for:

friends that invite me
puppies and kitties
knowing i CAN make changes
acting with integrity
being TRUTH

Learning

a reminder that all relationships require constant work to be worthwhile and that its pursuit pays huge dividends

friends that keep me laughing

tears, all of them; for pain, sorrow, sentimentality and joy

learning to lose expectation

for knowing that I am not poor in health or in riches and that there are so many others with struggles far greater than mine will ever be

oh and lastly for not using the excuse of a fight to run to nicotine!

birthday gratitude

tonight I am grateful for memories and new connections and understanding of my mom.

I'm grateful for my friends.

I'm grateful for my sweet boyfriend.

I'm grateful for a warm home.

I'm grateful for the Swedish bakery and grocery store I found just down the road!

I'm grateful that I don't have preeclampsia - knock on wood.

gr8

the cool refreshing zing of listerine
mint julep face masks
the cool chick behind the counter at benefit
7 year old twin friends
things that change
that look
contact

stay safe, stay warm, and happy holidays, merry solstice and joyous full moon

beat up

today i feel like ranting and raving. i feel beat up by things. instead, i'm gonna dig and see where there is gratitude. that is, afterall, the practice...and i know it works, so...here goes...

gr8full 4:

work - i know i keep saying this, but it looks like it's drying up...i hope i can eek out some more time here and stash some dough away.

warmth - i've been cold all morning and i'm finally warm...ahhhh.

my friends - all of the people that care about what i'm going through, even if it's the same story, different day.

that's it for now.

today i am grateful for

the ongoing connectedness with my longest/oldest friend colin. last night we spoke on the phone for over two hours. it's amazing to me to feel so connected to someone i haven't even seen in almost 14 years. our paths have been so different, and yet, when we speak (infrequently at best), it is obvious that we are connected. i'm very grateful for her friendship in my life.

movies to watch tonight...didn't watch them last night b/c i was on the phone for almost four hours!

arm warmers - that keep me warm in this chilly office. turn up the heat people!

cards in the mail - a reminder that i am loved.

broccoli, because it is the bomb ;)

staying warm

and i'm grateful for that. i'm also thankful for:

sweetness, when it appears in my life, usually in ways i don't expect, which is, well...sweet!

movies arriving at my house today and dinner already made, just needs heating.

invitations, even if/when i can't make it.

choices, because they are always what we have, even when we can't see that.

warm sweaters.

being ballsy/having chutzpah...and all the people in my life who genuinely appreciate that in me.

Rain!

thank you for the wonderful rainy day!

I'm grateful to have a partner who isn't consumed with holiday madness.

I'm grateful for all of the beautiful Christmas lights!

I'm grateful for having enough money to get what we need and I'm grateful for all of the assistance that is out there when I need it.

I'm grateful for my health.

I'm grateful for having a little bit of wisdom about some things.

HOLIDAZE

yes i like snow; even if I become a snow widow...thanks for all of it and the recharge to our aquifer!

The miracles of modern science and the real miracle of antibiotics ...if we don't screw ourselves by overprescribing it!

For being old (and wise?) enough to not take the passive aggressive guilt-tripping comments that get directed my way...may I refrain from doing that to others.

For two weeks smoke free. Blessed be.

To new families and creating your reality...it really is possible to make the life you forsee.

work and the paycheck that comes with it: please let today be "easy" and drama free

quiet

solitude and time to think things through

knowing that things always change...

a place to hide out in

snow beautiful snow!

thank you for:
the neighbor who plowed us out today
the boogie snow boards my uncle gave the boys
a beautiful sleigh riding Sunday
and for snow, I am truly thankful for snow,
because I love watching my boys play in it!

today for:

not jumping out of bed and goig to yoga, but lounging in my soft apple green fleece bathrobe instead.

being invited to a party tonight.

plans with my favorite gay boyfriend shane today. we always have fun...even doing nothing. he's the best.

that my friend robin is doing great after her surgery last week, and that i will get to see her and love on her tomorrow.

the weekend! this week was tiring, even though i only worked three days. looks like next week will be busy and full. i'm very grateful for the lasting work and weekly paychecks.

sweetness: i like and love you the way you are, so many people do. you are awesome. don't lose sight of that!

a need to be grateful

sometimes I have to force myself to be grateful; when things feel strange and when I feel like the outsider. today didn't start out that way, but it sort of morphed into one of those days.

thank you for days when I feel connected.
thank you for all of the people who love or like me the way I am.
thank you for people who don't judge me.
thank you for helping me to remember that I had a family who loved me and that even when I feel alone, I'm not.
thank you for more time.

fried eh?

today i give thanks for:

a less crazy day at work and promising myself that i will leave "on time" - not putting in a 10 hour day.

the weekend upon us.

jeans and boots, my uniform.

a neighbor friend who has wine when i don't and joins me to watch t.v.

sore abdominals

love, friendship and family

Thank you for time to relax and do nothing.

Thank you for giving me a strong mind and will and for lessons that have helped me to learn it's okay to follow my own path.

Thank you for all of the evolutionary ideas that combined to create the internet!

Thank you for a warm comfy bed to sleep in and for many nights of uninterrupted sleep!

Thank you for intuitions that have led me to today.

Thank you for music.

midway grats

for:

working today, and even though it was crazy, i remained calm, focused and unfettered - what a relief.

making it most of the way through dierdre's cardio kick class...oy! some day i will be able to do this class from start to finish without stopping, but not today.

feeling good in my clothes, and in my skin - now, if it would only clear up!

not having to wash my hair daily.

the continued sense of calm and peace that has recently washed over me.

Thank you for synchronicities that make life easier.

Thank you for friends who give me the straight dope.

Thank you for my honey.

Thank you for putting me in a good neighborhood close to nature.

Thank you for everything I am learning.

Thank you for freeing up an experienced doula who just happened to have an opening for me with only 7 weeks to go and who lives around the corner. Perfecto.

Thank you for a hairdresser I like.

i'm grateful that my laundry is done and that that my building had radiated heat. that i will sleep in clean crisp sheets tonight. i'm pre-grateful for the hot yummy smelling bath i'm going to take as soon as i finish watching the soprano's finale. i'm grateful that my friend robin is doing okay after surgery that i didn't even know about until i received an email from her sister whom i do not know. i'm grateful for work tomorrow and probably the rest of the week, even though i know it will probably cause me odgida like usual. i'm thankful for this 3rd four day weekend which feels luxorious, even when i can't see it through the boredom it sometimes causes. i'm grateful i feel at peace.

7 days; 7 Arrows

thankful for the momentum that is saving me from myself:

7 days nicotine free and 10 pounds lighter

sleeping through a whole night

feeling better

resignation letters

hair appointments and any self indulgent treat

my new blackberry and refocus on my job

Thank you for this day.

Thank you for good sleep.

Thank you for perspective and time.

Thank you for giving me everything I need.

Thank you for giving me lessons that I sometimes don't know I need.

monday

i'm grateful...

that i got to sleep in on another sunny brisk day - even though it's monday - my coffee's brewing and i have nowhere that i HAVE to be until this afternoon.

for a fun visit time with various people over the weekend. connecting, eating, laughing, shopping...it was all very nice.

for relationships that change over time and land in a happier more peaceful place.

for having enough and cherishing what i have.

for not being one of those people that is crazy busy over the holidays, shuffling myself here and there when i don't want to, for being thankful for the peace and easiness i am feeling this holiday season.

cold sunny morning

i feel gratitude for:

my new apple green bathrobe - and even more grateful to be able to release the old scrappy bathrobe.

putting it out there, and getting what i need/want from that.

music and all of the creative geniuses that make it — that i admire so much.

love.

pretty things.

the rain is falling

and i'm grateful for it. we need it, and it's a great excuse (none needed though) to stay indoors, warm and dry.

i'm thankful for having a cozy home, warm and dry.

i appreciate all the people in my life who i share love with - good times - bad times - throughout time.

i'm grateful for all i have.

and i'm grateful for all i know, and all there is yet to learn.

peace out.

vietnamese soup

Today I am grateful for generosity in all forms.

I'm grateful for naps & snuggles.

I'm grateful for the lack of traffic today and for the fog that coated the bridge on both trips across.

I'm grateful for friends with discounts and for unexpected markdowns.

I'm grateful for "letting go".

And grateful that my therapist has returned from her month long trip to India!

what's pho?! ;)

today i'm grateful for:

being called into work - i kinda got used to weekly checks!

moving energy, both internally and externally, and feeling the effects almost immediately

group exercise classes - they motivate me and make me work harder than i would on my own

stillness - winter - time to hibernate

friends of friends (and of course, friends!)

and i'm grateful that amy's shower was so nice. so many loving people gathered to indeed, shower pete, amy and little baby with love (and onesies:) there was a lot of joy in that little house in oakland on saturday night, and i'm glad i got to be a part of it! )

living in gratitude

I am grateful that I live in a place with tons of resources and things to do if one desires a diversion or needs help.

I am grateful that I got to see my baby today and that being 40 doesn't have much to do with being healthy - I am learning that age is an arbitrary number and health is much more individual than that.

I am grateful for the yummy pho I had for lunch.

I am grateful for all of the compliments I received today.

I am grateful for the delicious chicken dinner that was made for me.

windy gray sunday

Today I am oh so grateful for all of our fantastic friends who showed their support at our baby shower! I am sorry I didn't get to spend more quality time with everyone but it was fun to connect with everyone at the same time in my new home and to open all those presents! I truly felt the love and it was awesome! Thanks!

I'm grateful to Jen for being such an awesome friend/party planner/organizer/hostess/cook/and everything else I haven't mentioned. Thank you!

I'm grateful to Pete for spending so much time cooking, cleaning and hosting the party and for not buckling under the general stress of becoming a father. And for letting people know how he feels.

I'm grateful that everyone played so well together.

I'm grateful for having the opportunity to see people I haven't spent time with in a while and for meeting new people.

I'm grateful for the prenatal yoga community that I am beginning to connect with and for the teacher who told me to have more fun.