daily gratitudinals

2010-07-30T22:30:00.001-07:00

Canoli from stelline
Family-owned Italian restaurants
Reconnecting with my sweetie
Cashmere sweaters that fit
Cc going to sleep easily
Laughter

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Memorial day

2010-05-31T17:30:00.001-07:00

Today I am grateful for my boy, my bountiful garden, friends to hang out with, a job to complain about and that I pushed my limit and found out that running is definitely not an option for these old knees.

And I'm grateful that my dad made it back from WWII and was able to heal his spirit after such atrocities. I pray the same is possible for all the soldiers in the world.

And I send out a special prayer for the oceans of the world, especially the gulf.

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Mother's day!

2010-05-09T08:40:00.001-07:00

I love my son so much! What a blessing he has been. And continues to be.

Today I am grateful for all of the things motherhood has brought:

Healing of my relationship with my mom and deep understanding of what it was like for her and why she acted the way she did.

Opportuntites to work on my self in my relationship and to learn again how to take care of myself. I got good at it before I had a baby and partner and now I have to learn it all again.

The closeness I share with my baby.

Having a family. This has changed my life. Things that used to captivate my time are now unfufilling and that has been a struggle. Not having complete freedom to do what I want has also been a struggle. And being a mom is so challenging! I sometimes wonder what I was thinking, and then I think of what was before and I am so grateful for this reality.

And I am grateful for space to garden! And my neighbors and neighborhood and the universe taking care of me.

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Monday

2010-05-04T08:28:00.001-07:00

understanding

ice cream

my sweetie's love of barbecuing

free patio furniture and debating where to put it

puppies

Seek understanding, not judgement

2010-04-22T09:06:00.000-07:00

My job

My co-project manager

My baby boy

Eric Francis

Sunny weather

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Monday birthday

2010-04-19T22:10:00.000-07:00

Wonderful weekend with friends from afar. I love you Chuck and Tom - wished we lived closer.

Sleeping in my own bed.

A day of rest.

Understanding.

Ice cream.

Tuesday

2010-04-13T09:35:00.001-07:00

Double rainbows.

Healing body.

Clearing the clutter.

Being loved.

Working out.

Monday, Monday

2010-04-05T14:26:00.001-07:00

a doggie path that humans are allowed to walk in by work in Brisbane.

sunny/cloudy instead of rainy for a bit.

great family love and laughter on holidays.

my job.

my patience.

2010-03-30T10:54:00.000-07:00

Wellness offerings at work.

Having great co-workers.

The ability to move my body.

Sunshine and rain at the same time.

Love.

Hump day

2010-03-10T20:07:00.001-08:00

Today I am grateful for my well-paying job.
I am grateful my co-workers have faith in me.
I am grateful for the nice man at the camera school.
I am grateful for free lunch of yummy baked potato bar.
I am grateful we are getting better at diffusing tense situations.

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Sunny Saturday

2010-03-06T14:16:00.001-08:00

Friendly neighbors
My garden
Beautiful parks to play in
Being older and not as caught up in my own psychology
The homemade Thai feast we will have tonight

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Up all night

2010-03-04T04:22:00.001-08:00

Awesome yoga class close to home
A good day at work
Contract extension
My two year old running around the house saying "I love mommy!"
My conversation with Glenn

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March!

2010-03-01T23:07:00.001-08:00

I am grateful for my precious pookatini. He teaches me so much about letting things happen.

I am grateful for calm.

I am grateful for a good weekend.

I am grateful for inspirational friends.

I am grateful for having a job to support my family.

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Still Grateful

2010-02-12T12:30:00.000-08:00

Grateful for heart specialists.

Grateful for the rain.

Grateful for a roof over my head.

Grateful for a good job.

Grateful for loving relationships.

Grateful 2010

2010-01-08T22:57:00.000-08:00

Grateful to be alive

Grateful to go for a walk

Grateful to have someone to love or hate

Grateful that someone loves me

Grateful

I'm still grateful!

2009-12-02T16:09:00.001-08:00

to have a job

to have a honey

great times at Thanksgiving and whole weekend following

a motivated niece to get me to exercise class

so much more to follow

2009-06-20T13:45:00.000-07:00

I am grateful for rain

2009-05-26T21:22:00.000-07:00

I am so grateful for my family. I'm grateful for my cool neighbors and neighborhood full of flowers and trees. I'm grateful to have options. I'm grateful to have money. I'm grateful for the way my life is right now.

memorial weekend!

2009-05-23T15:14:00.000-07:00

today I'm grateful for:

date nights
balls
Nikhil's laughter
that I'm not doing this alone
lots of recent fun times

2009-05-11T22:26:00.000-07:00

The other day I was wishing I was a man BUT today I am so grateful to be a woman!

I'm grateful for change
for baby steps and for getting to see actual baby steps as I make my own
female doctors - and even more grateful for doctors who spend the time to make you feel like they will take good care of you rather than complaining about their wives calling all the time...fool - no way you are cutting me open!
I'm grateful that I still have the capacity to learn and to listen
I understand what makes a family strong. Patience and more importantly, unconditional love.
I am grateful to be the giver and the recipient of both

2009-05-10T20:52:00.000-07:00

I wish I could figure out how to post from my iPhone.

today I am grateful for my mom and the healing of our relationship now that I am a mom and understand so much more about what happens when you become a mom and how much sacrifice is involved - on all levels.

Friends are lost, interests that once meant so much fall into the closet for a while, I frequently feel isolated and like I can't do the things I used to do and many times just don't want to do those things anymore.

I am grateful for all the thing I have gained through the process and the things that are still evolving as I reinvent myself again. I am grateful for the opportunity to gain more confidence as I make decisions for me and my child. I am grateful for the people who are in my life and supporting me on this sometimes very difficult journey. I am grateful for things that bring me back to me. I am grateful for my one and only baby boy. I am grateful to be loved.

Friday Gratitude

2009-05-01T11:34:00.000-07:00

being able to do personal email at work

a sweet, 'fix stuff around the house' kind of boyfriend

friends

water that's constantly purging my pipes

coaching calls

2009-04-29T13:17:00.000-07:00

realizing what may be going on - no exercise makes my knee feel good but my mind feel bad
the cutest boy in the world
his dad
an afternoon/evening off
seeing progress even when it's slow

2009-04-28T06:38:00.000-07:00

time alone
a warm bed
a few people who know me well
everything my parents gave me
cookies

TGIF

2009-04-24T14:10:00.000-07:00

today I am grateful for

synchronicities - the right people at the right times
the fever is broken
clear, close friendships
a partner who can hear difficult things and is open to change
everything else

2009-04-15T16:32:00.000-07:00

having a job

friends and family

a roof over my head

puppies

laughter

2009-04-14T07:37:00.000-07:00

I am grateful for quiet and rest

for giggles in bed with my husband

for books which make me think

for friends that accept and forgive me

for a future.

rising up out of the ashes

2009-04-12T13:32:00.000-07:00

public art
new friends
fresh veggies
my bed
my beautiful boy

remembering

2009-04-11T20:25:00.000-07:00

tonight I'm grateful as always for my parents and for having full circle experiences now that I have my own child and understand more about being a parent
I'm grateful for my health and the health of my friends and family
I'm grateful for my home
that I didn't gain weight for a whole other 24 hours even though I ate candy last night
grateful that I have friends who remember important dates and call me to check in

'tis the season of reinvention

2009-04-10T14:05:00.000-07:00

Things I am grateful for today:

some quiet time to think and organize myself
homemade granola
that the scale has gone down and stayed there for almost 24 hours!
the times when Oprah hits it in the mark - especially this week's show on how mother's lie about how they really feel about it all...
no full moon freak outs - yet

happy milestone roberta!

2008-03-08T08:35:00.000-08:00

gratitude today for:

a day to celebrate women
(today is international women's day)

love in all of it's forms

a sunny day

hope for the future

warm purring morning kitties on my birthday

practice

2008-03-07T09:04:00.000-08:00

trying to get back to practice...

grateful for:

city walks
relaxing
surrender
letting go
faith in the future

2008-03-06T12:27:00.000-08:00

today i am grateful for:

loving supportive friends in hard times (and also good times)
long walks
free weights
truth
knowing still that everything changes...i'm ready. i'm ready. i'm ready.

future couple...

2008-03-04T11:44:00.000-08:00

simple things

2008-01-16T07:15:00.000-08:00

today i feel grateful that:

my cell phone survived a near fatal fall (almost into) a swirling hot cup of coffee...
the phone remains unscathed...my kitchen floor and cabinet, well now, that's another coffee sticky story.

i had the opportunity to work at the sharper image for five months. it was good while it lasted, and it seems now it's time to move on. i'm thankful for all of the skills and renewed confidence in my work that i've gained, as well as meeting lots of nice new people.

my muscles are not screaming mad at me today. a little whiney maybe, but that's much easier to deal with. i will negotiate with them later in the day to see if we make it to the gym for cardio kick after work.

i have some money in the bank to cushion the end of contract blow...but i must move fast nonetheless.

i woke up on time today. yesterday i slept right through my alarm...well, that, or i never set it. i've been so extra tired lately. i'm wondering if it's due to my pumped up workouts and muscles stealing oxygen and leaving me tired...

and, yea! it's almost sweetness's birthday! i wonder what she wants/wants to do?! ;)

14 days til MY birthday!

2008-01-15T11:12:00.000-08:00

today I am full of thanks for:

time to rest on a foggy day
lightening up
feeling like I can still be active and knowing when to stop
not feeling guilty about taking care of myself
the unpredictable turns that life takes
abundant opportunities to learn how to surrender

Snowy Monday

2008-01-14T09:31:00.000-08:00

glad we didn't get pummelled by snow as predicted

incredibly grateful for the chance shot of my birth...imagine being born to parents in the Congo or Darfur

for soul sisters and mothers; my friend Stephanie and laughing like we always have even when 6 years have gone by since our last visit...it means so much to have like minded people in my life even if they are all far away.

modern medicine is amazing

that my friends still love me when I suck at staying in touch, conveying their importance to me, and being that warm and squishy friend you can depend on...thank you!

2008-01-12T22:50:00.000-08:00

today I'm grateful:

that I didn't go into labor last night, or today
that I was able to do yoga today and that I was the furthest along/most pregnant person there for the first time!
for my beautiful home
that I can feel my body getting ready
that I will hopefully have time to do a cast of my belly tomorrow
for time to relax
that Amy's water broke and by this time tomorrow her little girl will be OUT!

fun

2008-01-12T13:11:00.000-08:00

a fun time last night

a groovy danceable show

new friends

sleeping in! (i just woke up at 12:45!)

coffee loungin'

AAAHHH

2008-01-11T08:09:00.000-08:00

Breathing techniques

Romantic weekend getaway to reconnect with my husband

The state of Vermont...so close and yet so far

rain...instead of snow

sappy movies that allow me to cry, feel compassion and release so that I don't do it other places, like work, where it is not so acceptable.

friday yeah friday yea

2008-01-11T07:11:00.000-08:00

i'm so glad it's friday. it's been a long week. productive, and tiring....

today i'm grateful for:

a weekend full of plans, and time to chill too

weekly paychecks that are chunky enough to save for leaner times (and upcoming expenses)

realizing that i actually DO like doing massage...just not for a living, but rather for the right person/s - i'm also grateful that i will receive my 1/2 of the massage trade that started last night next week!

not feeling sad or empty

taking care of myself in the best way i know how right now

if only it were friday!

2008-01-10T10:24:00.000-08:00

cardio kick (ass) class last night, and all the sweat and sore muscles that go along with it.

plans to go to dinner and see a show tomorrow night and shake my bootay.

continued ability to save with my "aggressive savings plan".

supplements.

chicken salad and curry vegetables.

yea!

2008-01-09T13:32:00.000-08:00

my boss...who wants me to heal in time for my vacation!
my husband...who will take good care of me
my colleagues ...who will pinch hit for me
my mother who was right all along as mothers often are
support of aquaintances who just want to be nice

half there...

2008-01-09T09:31:00.000-08:00

sore muscles (back for more, later)

friends that i admire (some of whom might even be reading this)

nail clippers and tweezers (my daily personal grooming "indulgences")

letting go (with the pain slipping away)

laughter (especially when it's unlikely)

2008-01-08T13:01:00.000-08:00

my bed and sleeping all night
all the effort put into painting the house
warm bodies next to me
oil
squirming babies
a downpour during sivasana

2008-01-08T08:59:00.000-08:00

a seat on the bus...even if i was squished btwn two men who took up more than their fair share of space

my big fuzzy cozy sweater-coat in this freezing office

once again, my recommittment to the gym

a night to do nothing later...i will cook for myself and chillax, maybe even paint my nails

the second hard boiled egg...the one whose peel came off easily and was cooked to perfection

the test of time...

2008-01-07T13:48:00.000-08:00

45 years. i am grateful he is mine...keep him healthy

my assertiveness when it assists communications

self indulgence and learning when it is enough

laughter

pets

today:

2008-01-07T07:33:00.000-08:00

my new aggressive savings strategy: week 2, and $400 saved!

not buying things that i CAN just because, and not being a complete spend thrift
either.

hanging out with people who get me, and let me be my true self...warts and all.

my new dishes, which allow me to throw away the old chipped ones that were making
me feel poor.

still working at TSI, i can't believe it, and i hope it continues...better get
ready. (sorry this is repetitive, but i am truly grateful for this job...even when i don't like it so much).

what am I grateful for?

2008-01-07T05:28:00.000-08:00

flexibility
unstructured time so I can rest when I need to
relationships that weather distance
Pete's dark, smiling eyes and his patience
kindness

2008-01-06T09:02:00.000-08:00

help
helping
rolling with the punches
letting go
rebirth and the painful process

2008-01-04T19:02:00.001-08:00

power (electricity)

candles

laptop with 9 hour battery

rainbow foods

warmth

sweet words from my sweetie

friends supporting friends

2008-01-04T14:23:00.000-08:00

i'm grateful for this rainy weather...mostly because we need it, and because it's a time when i can feel GOOD about being cozied up inside my apartment...i wish i were there right now!

i'm grateful that i'm not a noisy person without regard for others around me. same goes for being grateful that i'm a person who is aware of others in my surroundings (more often than not...i mean, c'mon, nobody's perfect ;)

i'm grateful for my iPod, even though it's pretty damn anti-social.

i'm grateful for not falling into old patterns...something i seem to be battling on a daily basis, and most days, on a recurring basis.

i'm grateful for feeling full and not overeating to fill a void...let's hope it lasts a long long time!

initiative

2008-01-04T07:56:00.000-08:00

stones, pebbles, whathave you...just knowing that now I can do something about it

my initiative ...in my own health care...in my job...in my relations; everything I have achieved is directly related to my doing it myself, yes with help, but the initial actions must happen internally

my partner, my friends, and even my family and learning what I can and cannot rely and expect from them

fire...to keep me warm, cook my food, and fuel my spirit

internet and technology...and the ability to turn it off when i choose

2008-01-03T21:23:00.000-08:00

rain

rain stopping when i'm walking outside

lunch with friends

feeling close enough to a coworker to know i'll miss them and be sad when they retire and yet still be happy for them

understanding contractors

learning

2008-01-03T19:38:00.000-08:00

grateful for:

learning new things at work and being busy.

reconnecting with people i like.

doing something good for others.

fried tofu.

not giving in to old patterns.

hmmmm, why am i grateful today?

2008-01-02T21:03:00.000-08:00

i have a warm apartment
i have caring friends
i have my sense of humor (still)
i have a world of possibilites - even when i can't see that
i have my lunch made for tomorrow

greatitude

2008-01-02T17:12:00.000-08:00

catching a cab right after my excellent nye show!!!

lazing around on 1/1/08 and loving every minute of it

being allowed to vent and letting others vent

getting to work on time

leaving work on time

young fertile new year

2008-01-02T13:36:00.000-08:00

only a few days old...it feels vulnerable yet hopeful; it could make me feel old if it weren't for the grand hallmarks of the latter part of '07

I am thankful daily, especially each morning, for my resolve over my nicotine addiction

Learning to let go of old habits and issues and striving for a better being

Learning to love my company and what I need to be a better compatriot at home and work and life

For friends and chosen family...i'm even grateful for the unchosen family, chosen before I was born for the lessons I continue to forge

For the optimism of a new year, of beginnings...may we remember that throughout the year while in the midst of numerous endings and evolutions

INpossible

2007-12-31T08:45:00.000-08:00

the best thiing for me about the year turning is the possibilities the new year holds. when we can all dream about how to create the life we really want, making space for new things and letting go of the old things that no longer serve us.

I am grateful for:

the possibilies of change
knowing that it is possible to re-lose the weight (a tried and true new years sentiment!)
honoring what works
continuing to let go of what does not work
knowing that i have enough and that i AM enough

again - happy new year to you all.
be safe.
be grateful.
be love.

expansion

2007-12-30T21:37:00.000-08:00

i'm grateful for:

extended friend families
figuring it out
remaining calm
not buying into the hype
sales sales everywhere

feliz año nuevo

i heart john doe

2007-12-29T09:47:00.000-08:00

i'm grateful that i went to slims to see john doe and X play last night
i'm grateful that i was standing on his side and got to watch him rock out (i heart john doe!!)
i'm grateful that i am not a sloppy drunk
i'm grateful for enjoying myself in a sea of aging punk rockers - quite amusing
i'm grateful for standing my ground and honoring my feelings

clearer...

2007-12-28T10:00:00.000-08:00

i'm seeing things more clearly now. remembering to check in with how things FEEL as opposed only to what is said...

so today, i'm grateful for:

face time with amy - thanks for a fun time ;)
going to see "X" tonight
today is friday, which means i can sleep in tomorrow! hip hip hooray!
netflix netflix netflix _ my new best friend!
coconut hair shine...i'd be the eternal witchy woman without it
possibilities for the new year...a girl can (and sometimes will) dream!

2007-12-27T07:18:00.000-08:00

i give thanks today for:

the beautiful winter sunrise
the birds chirping
being able to pay my bills
a casual/jeans work environment
change (i'm counting on it!)
a short work week
my friends (who feel especially important these days)
letting go (even when it's not complete)
this practice - which keeps me grateful...mostly ;)

post holiday blues

2007-12-27T06:53:00.000-08:00

I am grateful for my daddy's egg nog recipe...as are others!

I'm grateful I have a job to go back to even if I did not want to

I'm grateful for the lovely gifts that people spent time to purchase and give to me/us

I'm grateful for a doctors appointment, finally.

I'm grateful for lessons taught to me by my parents...no, they couldn't get them all but at least when I eat people don't hear me two rooms away....gross...so maybe I'll work on being less judgemental in the next year.

everything changes

2007-12-26T11:49:00.000-08:00

i'm a really in process of focusing on the good things, and letting go of things that no longer serve me. it sounds so easy. it's a process and there's lots of change to deal with through it all...

so today i'm grateful for:

friends that invite me
puppies and kitties
knowing i CAN make changes
acting with integrity
being TRUTH

Learning

2007-12-26T09:16:00.000-08:00

a reminder that all relationships require constant work to be worthwhile and that its pursuit pays huge dividends

friends that keep me laughing

tears, all of them; for pain, sorrow, sentimentality and joy

learning to lose expectation

for knowing that I am not poor in health or in riches and that there are so many others with struggles far greater than mine will ever be

oh and lastly for not using the excuse of a fight to run to nicotine!

birthday gratitude

2007-12-23T23:46:00.000-08:00

tonight I am grateful for memories and new connections and understanding of my mom.

I'm grateful for my friends.

I'm grateful for my sweet boyfriend.

I'm grateful for a warm home.

I'm grateful for the Swedish bakery and grocery store I found just down the road!

I'm grateful that I don't have preeclampsia - knock on wood.

gr8

2007-12-23T21:25:00.000-08:00

the cool refreshing zing of listerine
mint julep face masks
the cool chick behind the counter at benefit
7 year old twin friends
things that change
that look
contact

stay safe, stay warm, and happy holidays, merry solstice and joyous full moon

beat up

2007-12-21T11:34:00.000-08:00

today i feel like ranting and raving. i feel beat up by things. instead, i'm gonna dig and see where there is gratitude. that is, afterall, the practice...and i know it works, so...here goes...

gr8full 4:

work - i know i keep saying this, but it looks like it's drying up...i hope i can eek out some more time here and stash some dough away.

warmth - i've been cold all morning and i'm finally warm...ahhhh.

my friends - all of the people that care about what i'm going through, even if it's the same story, different day.

that's it for now.

today i am grateful for

2007-12-19T09:47:00.000-08:00

the ongoing connectedness with my longest/oldest friend colin. last night we spoke on the phone for over two hours. it's amazing to me to feel so connected to someone i haven't even seen in almost 14 years. our paths have been so different, and yet, when we speak (infrequently at best), it is obvious that we are connected. i'm very grateful for her friendship in my life.

movies to watch tonight...didn't watch them last night b/c i was on the phone for almost four hours!

arm warmers - that keep me warm in this chilly office. turn up the heat people!

cards in the mail - a reminder that i am loved.

broccoli, because it is the bomb ;)

staying warm

2007-12-18T13:14:00.000-08:00

and i'm grateful for that. i'm also thankful for:

sweetness, when it appears in my life, usually in ways i don't expect, which is, well...sweet!

movies arriving at my house today and dinner already made, just needs heating.

invitations, even if/when i can't make it.

choices, because they are always what we have, even when we can't see that.

warm sweaters.

being ballsy/having chutzpah...and all the people in my life who genuinely appreciate that in me.

Rain!

2007-12-18T11:07:00.000-08:00

thank you for the wonderful rainy day!

I'm grateful to have a partner who isn't consumed with holiday madness.

I'm grateful for all of the beautiful Christmas lights!

I'm grateful for having enough money to get what we need and I'm grateful for all of the assistance that is out there when I need it.

I'm grateful for my health.

I'm grateful for having a little bit of wisdom about some things.

HOLIDAZE

2007-12-18T07:26:00.000-08:00

yes i like snow; even if I become a snow widow...thanks for all of it and the recharge to our aquifer!

The miracles of modern science and the real miracle of antibiotics ...if we don't screw ourselves by overprescribing it!

For being old (and wise?) enough to not take the passive aggressive guilt-tripping comments that get directed my way...may I refrain from doing that to others.

For two weeks smoke free. Blessed be.

To new families and creating your reality...it really is possible to make the life you forsee.

2007-12-17T09:24:00.000-08:00

work and the paycheck that comes with it: please let today be "easy" and drama free

quiet

solitude and time to think things through

knowing that things always change...

a place to hide out in

snow beautiful snow!

2007-12-16T17:16:00.000-08:00

thank you for:
the neighbor who plowed us out today
the boogie snow boards my uncle gave the boys
a beautiful sleigh riding Sunday
and for snow, I am truly thankful for snow,
because I love watching my boys play in it!

2007-12-15T09:15:00.000-08:00

today for:

not jumping out of bed and goig to yoga, but lounging in my soft apple green fleece bathrobe instead.

being invited to a party tonight.

plans with my favorite gay boyfriend shane today. we always have fun...even doing nothing. he's the best.

that my friend robin is doing great after her surgery last week, and that i will get to see her and love on her tomorrow.

the weekend! this week was tiring, even though i only worked three days. looks like next week will be busy and full. i'm very grateful for the lasting work and weekly paychecks.

sweetness: i like and love you the way you are, so many people do. you are awesome. don't lose sight of that!

a need to be grateful

2007-12-15T01:12:00.000-08:00

sometimes I have to force myself to be grateful; when things feel strange and when I feel like the outsider. today didn't start out that way, but it sort of morphed into one of those days.

thank you for days when I feel connected.
thank you for all of the people who love or like me the way I am.
thank you for people who don't judge me.
thank you for helping me to remember that I had a family who loved me and that even when I feel alone, I'm not.
thank you for more time.

fried eh?

2007-12-14T13:31:00.000-08:00

today i give thanks for:

a less crazy day at work and promising myself that i will leave "on time" - not putting in a 10 hour day.

the weekend upon us.

jeans and boots, my uniform.

a neighbor friend who has wine when i don't and joins me to watch t.v.

sore abdominals

love, friendship and family

2007-12-13T10:57:00.000-08:00

Thank you for time to relax and do nothing.

Thank you for giving me a strong mind and will and for lessons that have helped me to learn it's okay to follow my own path.

Thank you for all of the evolutionary ideas that combined to create the internet!

Thank you for a warm comfy bed to sleep in and for many nights of uninterrupted sleep!

Thank you for intuitions that have led me to today.

Thank you for music.

midway grats

2007-12-12T21:30:00.000-08:00

for:

working today, and even though it was crazy, i remained calm, focused and unfettered - what a relief.

making it most of the way through dierdre's cardio kick class...oy! some day i will be able to do this class from start to finish without stopping, but not today.

feeling good in my clothes, and in my skin - now, if it would only clear up!

not having to wash my hair daily.

the continued sense of calm and peace that has recently washed over me.

2007-12-11T23:04:00.000-08:00

Thank you for synchronicities that make life easier.

Thank you for friends who give me the straight dope.

Thank you for my honey.

Thank you for putting me in a good neighborhood close to nature.

Thank you for everything I am learning.

Thank you for freeing up an experienced doula who just happened to have an opening for me with only 7 weeks to go and who lives around the corner. Perfecto.

Thank you for a hairdresser I like.

2007-12-11T16:21:00.000-08:00

i'm grateful that my laundry is done and that that my building had radiated heat. that i will sleep in clean crisp sheets tonight. i'm pre-grateful for the hot yummy smelling bath i'm going to take as soon as i finish watching the soprano's finale. i'm grateful that my friend robin is doing okay after surgery that i didn't even know about until i received an email from her sister whom i do not know. i'm grateful for work tomorrow and probably the rest of the week, even though i know it will probably cause me odgida like usual. i'm thankful for this 3rd four day weekend which feels luxorious, even when i can't see it through the boredom it sometimes causes. i'm grateful i feel at peace.

7 days; 7 Arrows

2007-12-11T10:40:00.000-08:00

thankful for the momentum that is saving me from myself:

7 days nicotine free and 10 pounds lighter

sleeping through a whole night

feeling better

resignation letters

hair appointments and any self indulgent treat

my new blackberry and refocus on my job

2007-12-10T09:41:00.000-08:00

Thank you for this day.

Thank you for good sleep.

Thank you for perspective and time.

Thank you for giving me everything I need.

Thank you for giving me lessons that I sometimes don't know I need.

monday

2007-12-10T08:25:00.000-08:00

i'm grateful...

that i got to sleep in on another sunny brisk day - even though it's monday - my coffee's brewing and i have nowhere that i HAVE to be until this afternoon.

for a fun visit time with various people over the weekend. connecting, eating, laughing, shopping...it was all very nice.

for relationships that change over time and land in a happier more peaceful place.

for having enough and cherishing what i have.

for not being one of those people that is crazy busy over the holidays, shuffling myself here and there when i don't want to, for being thankful for the peace and easiness i am feeling this holiday season.

cold sunny morning

2007-12-09T08:31:00.000-08:00

i feel gratitude for:

my new apple green bathrobe - and even more grateful to be able to release the old scrappy bathrobe.

putting it out there, and getting what i need/want from that.

music and all of the creative geniuses that make it — that i admire so much.

love.

pretty things.

the rain is falling

2007-12-06T22:03:00.001-08:00

and i'm grateful for it. we need it, and it's a great excuse (none needed though) to stay indoors, warm and dry.

i'm thankful for having a cozy home, warm and dry.

i appreciate all the people in my life who i share love with - good times - bad times - throughout time.

i'm grateful for all i have.

and i'm grateful for all i know, and all there is yet to learn.

peace out.

vietnamese soup

2007-12-05T17:37:00.000-08:00

Today I am grateful for generosity in all forms.

I'm grateful for naps & snuggles.

I'm grateful for the lack of traffic today and for the fog that coated the bridge on both trips across.

I'm grateful for friends with discounts and for unexpected markdowns.

I'm grateful for "letting go".

And grateful that my therapist has returned from her month long trip to India!

what's pho?! ;)

2007-12-05T07:21:00.000-08:00

today i'm grateful for:

being called into work - i kinda got used to weekly checks!

moving energy, both internally and externally, and feeling the effects almost immediately

group exercise classes - they motivate me and make me work harder than i would on my own

stillness - winter - time to hibernate

friends of friends (and of course, friends!)

and i'm grateful that amy's shower was so nice. so many loving people gathered to indeed, shower pete, amy and little baby with love (and onesies:) there was a lot of joy in that little house in oakland on saturday night, and i'm glad i got to be a part of it! )

living in gratitude

2007-12-04T20:51:00.000-08:00

I am grateful that I live in a place with tons of resources and things to do if one desires a diversion or needs help.

I am grateful that I got to see my baby today and that being 40 doesn't have much to do with being healthy - I am learning that age is an arbitrary number and health is much more individual than that.

I am grateful for the yummy pho I had for lunch.

I am grateful for all of the compliments I received today.

I am grateful for the delicious chicken dinner that was made for me.

windy gray sunday

2007-12-02T15:46:00.000-08:00

Today I am oh so grateful for all of our fantastic friends who showed their support at our baby shower! I am sorry I didn't get to spend more quality time with everyone but it was fun to connect with everyone at the same time in my new home and to open all those presents! I truly felt the love and it was awesome! Thanks!

I'm grateful to Jen for being such an awesome friend/party planner/organizer/hostess/cook/and everything else I haven't mentioned. Thank you!

I'm grateful to Pete for spending so much time cooking, cleaning and hosting the party and for not buckling under the general stress of becoming a father. And for letting people know how he feels.

I'm grateful that everyone played so well together.

I'm grateful for having the opportunity to see people I haven't spent time with in a while and for meeting new people.

I'm grateful for the prenatal yoga community that I am beginning to connect with and for the teacher who told me to have more fun.

oh, my aching back

2007-11-29T11:45:00.000-08:00

i'm grateful today:

that i am knowledgable in how to take care of myself, even if i don't always DO that.

for lazy evenings after long work days.

for having time to cook fresh vegies and eat well.

for really getting what manomet put in her graditudianls — and feeling very much the same way in my situation.

for my appointment on saturday ;)

2007-11-28T23:11:00.000-08:00

crash pads in the city
chosen family
being appreciated
not feeling too freaked out about what's going to happen over the next few months
being prepared and being open to possibility

Perspective

2007-11-28T13:41:00.000-08:00

making up

even if I struggle with being nice; i'm grateful that those i want to be on the receiving end, will be...and it feels good.

that i am a girl ( oh and capable of juggling and following through - sorry for the dis guys)

caring enough to keep trying and yet knowing when to cut your losses - always seeking the balance...

feeling the love of friends afar and hoping they feel it too

.5-way there

2007-11-28T07:18:00.000-08:00

good friends

yummy burmese food

dessert, just because

express buses

having enough

tooooosday

2007-11-27T14:02:00.000-08:00

i'm grateful for:

recommitting to the gym

digitized music that you can take anywhere

feeling on top of things (in general)

voicing concerns positively and being felt heard

morning songbirds chirping outside my winter window

2007-11-25T11:00:00.000-08:00

Today:

I am grateful to have found someone who loves me no matter how ugly, hormonal, doubtful, complaining, scared or crazy I feel and act - even when he is on the receiving end of everything he is gracious, generous and loving and I can't believe it.

I am grateful to have time to myself sometimes.

I am grateful for friends.

I am grateful that sometimes I have the ability to be objective.

I am grateful that I am learning.

enough time

2007-11-25T08:55:00.000-08:00

this morning i am grateful for the sometimes sunshine and sometimes overcast/grey, streaming through my sheers, reminding me that there is enough time.

i'm grateful for knowing that stillness bears fruit

i'm grateful for continuing to find clarity in a situation so murky

i'm grateful for knowing that there is time for change..enough time

and most importantly, i'm grateful to have been successful in staying away from retail establishments!

turkey thanks & forgiving

2007-11-22T23:13:00.000-08:00

I woke up feeling the need to forgive today. I will start by forgiving myself. Nuff said.

I am grateful for:

good friends, old friends, new friends...the whole lot
a drama-free turkey day with the "in-laws"
a warm, cozy, clean home - I appreciate all of my man's efforts to keep it this way
reminders - someone told me yesterday one of the keys to good relationships is to picture the person (mate, parent, friend, whomever) at their ultimate best self and always keep that picture in mind, even when you are feeling otherwise. I am grateful this was shared with me - a new thing to strive for and wouldn't it be just wonderful if people walked around assuming the best of each other rather than being judgemental?

I had another thought that has to do with worry. I find myself worrying about people I'm close to from time to time yet I absolutely hate it when people worry about me. I think it might be a better use of thought power, energy and "worry time" to picture people at their best and cloak them in light and positive thoughts.

I'm grateful I have a safe place to come home to every day.

giving thanks

2007-11-22T10:43:00.000-08:00

today i feel grateful for sleeping in and lounging about. for the day of more of that, with way too much food. and so therefore, i'm grateful for stretchy pants.

thanks to all the people out there that i love, who love me, and even some of them who don't.

for taking time and figuring stuff out.

i'm thankful that i have the things i need to be comfortable, warm and safe.

and thanks to all of you for this practice.

groovy and peaceful gobbling!